"𝘪𝘯 1999, 𝘪 𝘨𝘰𝘵 𝘪𝘯𝘵𝘰 𝘵𝘳𝘰𝘶𝘣𝘭𝘦 𝘪𝘯 𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘷𝘢𝘪𝘴𝘩𝘯𝘢𝘷𝘪𝘴𝘮 𝘤𝘰𝘮𝘮𝘶𝘯𝘪𝘵𝘺 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘪 𝘨𝘳𝘦𝘸 𝘶𝘱 𝘪𝘯 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘴𝘦𝘯𝘥𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘢𝘯 𝘦𝘮𝘢𝘪𝘭 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘸𝘢𝘴 𝘴𝘦𝘯𝘵 𝘵𝘰 𝘮𝘦 𝘣𝘺 𝘢 𝘤𝘭𝘢𝘴𝘴𝘮𝘢𝘵𝘦 𝘪𝘯 𝘶𝘯𝘪𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘴𝘪𝘵𝘺 [was my first time to interact with others outside community since i was home-schooled/alternative schooling and my first use of internet too] 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘪 𝘴𝘦𝘯𝘵 𝘪𝘵 𝘵𝘰 𝘮𝘺 𝘤𝘩𝘪𝘭𝘥𝘩𝘰𝘰𝘥 𝘧𝘳𝘪𝘦𝘯𝘥𝘴 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘪 𝘵𝘳𝘪𝘦𝘥 𝘧𝘪𝘯𝘥 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘪𝘮𝘢𝘨𝘦 𝘢𝘨𝘢𝘪𝘯 𝘵𝘰𝘥𝘢𝘺 .

T𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘦𝘹𝘪𝘴𝘵𝘦𝘥 𝘪𝘯 1999 [as far as i know] 𝘪 𝘳𝘦𝘮𝘦𝘮𝘣𝘦𝘳 𝘤𝘰𝘳𝘳𝘦𝘤𝘵𝘭𝘺 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘣𝘰𝘢𝘳𝘥 𝘪𝘯 𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘤𝘰𝘮𝘮𝘶𝘯𝘪𝘵𝘺 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘮𝘺 𝘵𝘦𝘢𝘤𝘩𝘦𝘳 𝘴𝘪𝘯𝘤𝘦 𝘤𝘩𝘪𝘭𝘥𝘩𝘰𝘰𝘥 𝘨𝘰𝘵 𝘴𝘰 𝘶𝘱𝘴𝘦𝘵 𝘸𝘩𝘦𝘯 𝘴𝘰𝘮𝘦𝘰𝘯𝘦 𝘵𝘰𝘭𝘥 𝘩𝘦𝘳 𝘪 𝘴𝘦𝘯𝘵 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘵𝘰 𝘴𝘰𝘮𝘦 𝘰𝘧 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘰𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳 𝘨𝘪𝘳𝘭𝘴 𝘪𝘯 𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘤𝘰𝘮𝘮𝘶𝘯𝘪𝘵𝘺. 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘮 𝘪𝘵 𝘸𝘢𝘴 𝘴𝘦𝘳𝘪𝘰𝘶𝘴 𝘴𝘵𝘶𝘧𝘧 𝘵𝘰 𝘣𝘦 𝘱𝘭𝘢𝘺𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘭𝘪𝘬𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘤𝘰𝘯𝘴𝘤𝘪𝘰𝘶𝘴𝘯𝘦𝘴𝘴 𝘴𝘪𝘯𝘤𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘺 𝘴𝘢𝘪𝘥 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘮𝘪𝘯𝘥 𝘪𝘴 𝘢 𝘱𝘰𝘸𝘦𝘳𝘧𝘶𝘭 𝘵𝘰𝘰𝘭.

To be honest 𝘪 𝘸𝘢𝘴 𝘫𝘶𝘴𝘵 𝘢𝘮𝘢𝘻𝘦𝘥 𝘢𝘵 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘵𝘪𝘮𝘦 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘸𝘢𝘺 𝘸𝘩𝘰𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳 𝘮𝘢𝘥𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘶𝘴𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘸𝘩𝘢𝘵𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳 𝘸𝘢𝘴 𝘢𝘷𝘢𝘪𝘭𝘢𝘣𝘭𝘦 𝘵𝘰 𝘸𝘳𝘪𝘵𝘦 𝘢 𝘴𝘵𝘰r𝘺 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘥𝘪𝘥𝘯𝘵 𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘭𝘭𝘺 𝘤𝘰𝘯𝘴𝘪𝘥𝘦𝘳 𝘵𝘰 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘬 𝘰𝘧 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘰𝘶𝘨𝘩𝘵𝘴 𝘰𝘳 𝘪𝘯𝘵𝘦𝘯𝘵𝘴 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘪𝘵 𝘣𝘳𝘰𝘶𝘨𝘩𝘵 𝘰𝘶𝘵 𝘢𝘯𝘥 if it might 𝘪𝘯𝘧𝘭𝘪𝘤𝘵 𝘰𝘯 𝘰𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘴 𝘢𝘴 𝘢 𝘤𝘰𝘯𝘴𝘦𝘲𝘶𝘦𝘯𝘤𝘦 𝘣𝘶𝘵 𝘪 𝘨𝘶𝘦𝘴𝘴 𝘪𝘵 𝘪𝘴 𝘸𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘺𝘪𝘯 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘺𝘢𝘯𝘨 𝘪𝘴 𝘢𝘣𝘰𝘶𝘵 𝘩𝘦𝘩𝘦𝘩𝘦" - "mo speak"

notes:

1. the classmate that sent the email to me in 1999 he passed away several years ago from a stroke so i could not really verify where he got this.

2. although i left that community after i chose my own path, just to be clear, i still respect the philosophy and intent in their actions therefore I don not resent the community that i grew up in knowing the fact that it was my parent's best effort to prepare us for this lifetime as best that they could and that community showed genuine and sincere concern.