Now that everything has changed, that it's calm and I can start over, now that you're almost gone, that I see how far you've always been, now I wonder, and know what? What does the future hold for me now that I don't even know who I am, when I have no breath left and little strength to walk. I am waiting while I grow small and old, while the dogs bite my ankles and my mind matures, and know what? what does it take to live...