There are times that to be honest all I wanted was just to let go, they say that time will heal all the wounds but I guess in my situation it just left the scars all over me, I just wanted to be a better person to help others and not drown them with me... Every new day that goes by I just feel like I'm not worth it, that I don't deserve anything and all that is happening to me all the failure is deserved and this is just my punishment for my actions, I was never perfect and I just feel that I'm messed up in ways that I don't imagine, at this point, I'm afraid of myself and what some people say might be true. I'm afraid of trying to reach for help and discover that everything I think might be the reality, I don't want to face it it will be just too much for me, more than I could handle, sometimes I feel that life is a mess and it's better to leave things how they're and not trying to find things out because after all I'm a loner and I always will be at least for the inside me. All that I ask you is that don't be like me don't get the sadness to take away your brightest side. Because it will make you scared of love, I'm scared of loving someone, and deep inside I'm just hurting the person because all the darkness inside doesn't let me be the true me, I'm not enough and I will never be...

Just promise me that whenever you feel like giving up, think about why you have been holding for so long. Do me that favor keep fighting, for the both of us it's already enough being me the failure<3