The loss of yourself is a long and tough process, it cannot happen overnight, not even through a single event, it is a series of never-ending torments with isolated moments of calm, which are felt as happiness. In order to survive, you set up mental prostheses, a world of harmony, that's how I do it in any case. You subconsciously set it up as the opposite of your reality, it becomes bigger, more engaging, begins to become another reality, a parallel universe you can withdraw into, a place that only belongs to you, where you are your sole ruler, yes until then it's a long way away and this place has nothing in common with reality. you will behave differently, people will find you in a reality that is not theirs, will call you crazy when you walk past them seemingly talking to yourself, acting oddly. In doing so, they simply do not see the place in front of you as a protection from that place in which the condemning souls dwell, the reality. Do you have your own world ?

-Lyrithea