The Moment I Knew He Didn't Love Me

It was one of those passionate loves. Passion is a powerful emotion that makes it so different from your average kind of love. When you feel passion, you feel alive, happy, excited, euphoric, and driven – all at once.

The ups and downs were there, and every time there was a down, I would notice something wasn’t quite right, yet something would keep me there. Hope. I straddled a line in the middle during this relationship. I was hopeful that it would work out, yet knowing it wouldn’t change.

Every argument turned into a fight. I was never as anxious, jealous, insecure, unstable, confused, or restless as I was when I was in these fights. A passionate and abusive relationship is different. It literally takes your entire being. If I did something wrong, I was punished. I don’t remember ever crying so much around a person.

I realized during our last fight that I should never have to request respect, kindness and compassion from my partner. I realized that is not love or friendship.

The moment I knew he didn’t love me was the moment I knew I would be okay on my own. So I chose myself and left.

About the image - I remember editing this image after we had a bad fight. It was a surreal feeling working on this creation that is supposed to represent growth, while on the inside, I was so anxiously tied up in turmoil. The opposite of growth.

I felt a strong sensation of loneliness as I worked on this image, but I knew I would be okay alone. Now when I look at this image I see the Yellow Dress unafraid of growth and conquering it alone.

Edition - 1/1 Photography NFT
Artist - Sarah Lyndsay

About the Artist - Sarah Lyndsay is a passionate, environmental self-portrait and landscape photographer based in the beautiful Canadian Rockies. She is widely known for her signature yellow dress, long exposure work and bubbly personality. Sarah works with some of the photography industry’s top brands as an ambassador and travels the world educating other photographers in epic landscapes. She shares her experiences and behind-the-scenes photography adventures on her YouTube channel and always has her Whippet, Ollie by her side.

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