Have you ever looked at someone and wanted what they have so you change something about yourself to be a little more like them? At first a little doesn’t seem like a lot until one day you look yourself in the mirror and don’t recognize the person looking back at you. Over and over again I have tried to fit in. Whether it was becoming what others including family, relationship partners and society wanted me to be. I feel like I have lost my soul buried underneath the things I became that were never me. When someone that you’re not becomes who you are letting go is hard. Sitting with all these versions of myself I stare into the void so filled with an abundance of things but none with meaning. Why? Because I didn’t want these things in the first place. I was just trying to fit in.