This work is dedicated to all mothers, present, future, and failed. I am a mother of twins. My journey to motherhood took 7 years. At first you think it's not time to become a mom yet. Then you think it's time. A year goes by, another year And you realize you've been going to doctors, getting tests, and losing hope for 5 years. In 2017, I am scheduled for an uncomplicated surgery that ends up being life-threatening. In the end, new tests and the verdict is only IVF (in vitro fertilization). In the spring of 2018, the first protocol. I ended up getting pregnant with twins, but at the week the pregnancy stalls and we lose them. I still have 2 frozen embryos in the clinic. But I can't make up my mind to try again for another year, I'm in a depressed emotional state. 2 IVF attempt in spring 2019. Twins again. They are with us now. It's been a hard road. I wish everyone who wants to be a mom - to become one. But remember that the meaning of life is not in children, but in life itself.