Once you wake up and understand: the world suddenly lost its colors, food - taste and smell, work meaning. Favorite activities do not please, in the place where plans, ideas, dreams and desires once swarmed, absolute emptiness. I tried to do what I always liked, but every time I came across a wall with surprise: none of this makes me happy anymore. I can do this, I can do this, I can do nothing, I am a zombie, and neither alcohol nor other stimulants are able to bring me out of my stupor.