I'm at a breaking point. I've recorded my heartbeat, emotions, and loss of focus.

The warm tones: frustration and anxiety.

The cool tones: loss, grief, and sorrow.

The darkness: brain fog.

Off meds for a week now. Do they even help?

My brain screams.

I start my day frustrated at the number of tasks I face. I am overwhelmed.

I'll get to it in an hour, wait what all do I need to do again?

My brain feels foggy.

Oh no... I have so much left to do. Forget lunch, I need to focus.

Fuck.

I literally can't do anything right.

I'm gonna lose my job... I'll lose everything. How did I even get to this point? I'm the worst contributor.

What do I need to get done?...

I spend the afternoon avoiding work. I can't keep this up, I think. I just can't. How do I fix myself? Why can't I just... do it?

I'm a failure.

Wait, what was I supposed to be doing again?

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