i thought about you again 1 day after you said we should just be friends

i thought about the shiver that causes your jaw to clench when i talk about our bodies on the freeway

i thought about you while i facetimed with other men

the way your eyes lock with mine the way i want to kiss you all the time (i’m so fucking pissed)

i thought about a world where you and i co exist i felt nostalgic for memories we never made

the way you kneeled to the bottom shelf at the smoothie shop and ran your knuckles up the outside of my leg all the your way up

friendship bracelets were not really strangers

laying on the couch with your face in my neck falling off the bed wishing we would never end.

but did we ever even start? or was it in my head