Life is devoid of colors for you. Yet you are unaware of the power and luck that exists. The light waiting for you is right next to you. But you don't see it... You don't want to see it. Follow your light. You can overcome all negativity and be born again. Even if you despise yourself, you have guardians who will glorify you and take on your role with pleasure. The day you realize yourself will be the day you are born again.