Gordon always felt anxious. But since he could never properly describe his anxiety, no one ever knew that he was suffering. Instead, they just thought he was "imaginative". Gordon often said things like: "I think my organs are alive, they feel like they are pressing against each other, like they're having a party or something." Or he would say "Can you see the little man in the back of my throat? He keeps blocking off my tongue. I can't swallow." All anyone did was laugh at his "imagination", but Gordon rarely laughed. He just...survived.

This video-NFT is a combination of two completely different paintings representing the same anxious feeling, both created and painted by Alex Pardee. One painting was created entirely digitally, using Procreate and Photoshop, while the other painting was created entirely analog, using inks and acrylic paint.

This video file is a high res, 5000 x 3750 pixel looping animation.